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I think you will be anxious now to learn what this
little dove is doing, and where it is going to
settle, for of course it cannot rest in spiritual
consolations or in earthly pleasures. It is destined
to fly higher than this and I cannot fully satisfy
your anxiety until we come to the last Mansion. God
grant I may remember it then and find an opportunity
to write about it, for almost five months have passed
since I began this book, and, as my head is not in a
fit state for me to read it through again, it must
all be very confused and I may possibly say a few
things twice over. As it is for my sisters, however,
that matters little.
I want to explain to you still further what I think
this Prayer of Union is; and I will make a comparison
as well as my wit will allow. Afterwards we will say
more about this little butterfly, which never rests
-- though it is always fruitful in doing good to
itself and to other souls -- because it has not yet
found true repose.[146] You will often have heard
that God betrothes Himself to souls spiritually.
Blessed be His mercy, which is pleased so to humble
itself! I am only making a rough comparison, but I
can find no other which will better explain what I am
trying to say than the Sacrament of Matrimony. The
two things work differently, for in this matter which
we are treating there is nothing that is not
spiritual: corporeal union is quite another thing and
the spiritual joys and consolations given by the Lord
are a thousand leagues removed from those experienced
in marriage. It is all a union of love with love, and
its operations are entirely pure, and so delicate and
gentle that there is no way of describing them; but
the Lord can make the soul very deeply conscious of
them.
It seems to me that this union has not yet reached
the point of spiritual betrothal, but is rather like
what happens in our earthly life when two people are
about to be betrothed. There is a discussion as to
whether or no they are suited to each other and are
both in love; and then they meet again so that they
may learn to appreciate each other better. So it is
here. The contract is already drawn up and the soul
has been clearly given to understand the happiness of
her lot and is determined to do all the will of her
Spouse in every way in which she sees that she can
give Him pleasure. His Majesty, Who will know quite
well if this is the case, is pleased with the soul,
so He grants her this mercy, desiring that she shall
get to know Him better, and that, as we may say, they
shall meet together,[147] and He shall unite her with
Himself.
We can compare this kind of union to a short
meeting of that nature because it is over in the very
shortest time. All giving and taking have now come to
an end and in a secret way the soul sees Who this
Spouse is that she is to take.[148] By means of the
senses and faculties she could not understand in a
thousand years what she understands in this way in
the briefest space of time. But the Spouse, being Who
He is, leaves her, after that one visit, worthier to
join hands (as people say) with Him; and the soul
becomes so fired with love that for her part she does
her utmost not to thwart this Divine betrothal. If
she is neglectful, however, and sets her affection on
anything other than Himself, she loses everything,
and that is a loss every bit as great as are the
favours He has been granting her, which are far
greater than it is possible to convey.
So, Christian souls, whom the Lord has brought to
this point on your journey, I beseech you, for His
sake, not to be negligent, but to withdraw from
occasions of sin -- for even in this state the soul
is not strong enough to be able to run into them
safely, as it is after the betrothal has been made --
that is to say, in the Mansion which we shall
describe after this one. For this communication has
been no more than (as we might say) one single short
meeting,[149] and the devil will take great pains
about combating it and will try to hinder the
betrothal. Afterwards, when he sees that the soul is
completely surrendered to the Spouse, he dare not do
this, for he is afraid of such a soul as that, and he
knows by experience that if he attempts anything of
the kind he will come out very much the loser and the
soul will achieve a corresponding gain.
I tell you, daughters, I have known people of a very
high degree of spirituality who have reached this
state, and whom, notwithstanding, the devil, with
great subtlety and craft, has won back to himself.
For this purpose he will marshal all the powers of
hell, for, as I have often said, if he wins a single
soul in this way he will win a whole multitude. The
devil has much experience in this matter. If we
consider what a large number of people God can draw
to Himself through the agency of a single soul, the
thought of the thousands converted by the martyrs
gives us great cause for praising God.
Think of a maiden like Saint Ursula. And of the
souls whom the devil must have lost through Saint
Dominic and Saint Francis and other founders of
Orders, and is losing now through Father Ignatius,
who founded the Company[150] -- all of whom, of
course, as we read, received such favours from God!
What did they do but endeavour that this Divine
betrothal should not be frustrated through their
fault?
Oh, my daughters, how ready this Lord still is to
grant us favours, just as He was then! In some ways
it is even more necessary that we should wish to
receive them, for there are fewer than there used to
be who think of the Lord's honour! We are so very
fond of ourselves and so very careful not to lose any
of our rights! Oh, what a great mistake we make! May
the Lord in His mercy give us light lest we fall into
such darkness.
There are two things about which you may ask me, or
be in doubt.
- The first is this: If the soul is so completely
at one with the will of God, as has been said, how
can it be deceived, since it never desires to
follow its own will?
- The second: By what avenues can the devil enter
and lead you into such peril that your soul may be
lost, when you are so completely withdrawn from the
world and so often approach the Sacraments? For you
are enjoying the companionship, as we might say, of
angels, since, by the goodness of the Lord, you
have none of you any other desires than to serve
and please Him in everything. It would not be
surprising, you might add, if this should happen to
those who are immersed in the cares of the world.
I agree that you are justified in asking this --
God has been abundantly merciful to us. But when I
read, as I have said, that Judas enjoyed the
companionship of the Apostles, had continual
intercourse with God Himself, and could listen to His
own words, I realize that even this does not
guarantee our safety. To the first question,
my reply would be that, if this soul invariably
followed the will of God, it is clear that it would
not be lost. But the devil comes with his artful
wiles, and, under colour of doing good, sets about
undermining it in trivial ways, and involving it in
practices which, so he gives it to understand, are
not wrong; little by little he darkens its
understanding, and weakens its will, and causes its
self-love to increase, until in one way and another
he begins to withdraw it from the love of God and
to persuade it to indulge its own wishes.
And this is also an answer to the second
question, for there is no enclosure so strictly
guarded that he cannot enter it, and no desert so
solitary that he cannot visit it. And I would make
one further remark -- namely, that the reason the
Lord permits this may possibly be so that He may
observe the behaviour of the soul which He wishes to
set up as a light to others; for, if it is going to
be a failure, it is better that it should be so at
the outset than when it can do many souls harm.
What we should be most diligent about, I think, is
this.
- First, we must continually ask God in our
prayers to keep us in His hand, and bear
constantly in mind that, if He leaves us, we
shall at once be down in the depths, as indeed we
shall. So we must never have any confidence in
ourselves -- that would simply be folly.
- But most of all we must walk with special
care and attention, and watch what progress we
make in the virtues, and discover if, in any way,
we are either improving or going back, especially
in our love for each other and in our desire to
be thought least of, and in ordinary things; for
if we look to this, and beg the Lord to give us
light, we shall at once discern whether we have
gained or lost.
Do not suppose, then, that when God brings a soul
to such a point He lets it go so quickly out of His
hand that the devil can recapture it without much
labour. His Majesty is so anxious for it not to be
lost that He gives it a thousand interior warnings of
many kinds, and thus it cannot fail to perceive the
danger.
Let the conclusion of the whole matter be this. We
must strive all the time to advance, and, if we are
not advancing, we must cherish serious misgivings, as
the devil is undoubtedly anxious to exercise his
wiles upon us. For it is unthinkable that a soul
which has arrived so far should cease to grow: love
is never idle, so failure to advance would be a very
bad sign. A soul which has once set out to be the
bride of God Himself, and has already had converse
with His Majesty and reached the point which has been
described, must not lie down and go to sleep again.
And so that you may see, daughters, how Our Lord
treats those whom He makes His brides, let us begin
to discuss the sixth Mansions, and you will see how
slight is all the service we can render Him, all the
suffering we can undergo for Him, and all the
preparation we can make for such great favours. It
may have been by Our Lord's ordinance that I was
commanded to write this so that we shall forget our
trivial earthly pleasures when we fix our eyes on the
reward and see how boundless is the mercy which makes
Him pleased to communicate and reveal Himself in this
way to us worms. So, fired by love of Him, we shall
run our race, with our eyes fixed upon His greatness.
May He be pleased to enable me to explain something
of these difficult things, which I know will be
impossible unless His Majesty and the Holy
Spirit[151] guide my pen. Were it not to be for your
profit I should beseech Him to prevent me from
explaining any of it, for His Majesty knows that, so
far as I myself can judge, my sole desire is that His
name should be praised, and that we should make every
effort to serve a Lord Who gives us such a reward
here below, and thus conveys to us some idea of what
He will give us in Heaven, without the delays and
trials and perils incident to this sea of tempests.
For, were it not that we might lose Him and offend
Him, it would be a comfort if our life did not end
until the end of the world, so that we could work for
so great a God and Lord and Spouse. May it please His
Majesty that we be worthy to do Him some service,
unmarred by the many faults that we always commit,
even in doing our good works! Amen.
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